the last few days have been okay ... things betwen me n mike have changed but were stilllll doing freaken awsome lol. like when i get aggrivated or stressed he either makes it worse to the point i wanna scream in his ear or he leaves me alone. i dunno but i love him soo much. i finally got my senior ball dress back yesterday and i put it on ... hehe its looks AWSOMEEE im sooo exciteddd i hope its mucho muhco fun :-) thats 1 week from today .. yippeeee skippeyyyy




ahh hmm i dunno what else to say



everythings going pretty good




OMG JUST REMEBERE yea so i lost my fucking job b.c they thihk i stole from the register know explain to me how beat si that?! do you really honestly think i would steal 30 bucks from the register when i wasnt even the only one on that register .... i just think they needed a reason to fire me can someone please explain that to mee.




grrr so ima be tight on money till i find ANOTHER job BEATTTT might have to go back to bussing tables at some high class restaurant like with mallozzis grr

so yea i gave blood today at 12 n was on the bed to give blood at 1:30 n was done at like 5 of 2 got up to got sit don have my jouice n stuff felt dizzy wnet to go put my head down n blacked out hit my head on the table n then hit the floor. my cousin DJ works there and he was flipping out .. it was scarry and my head hurts :-[




ahh well im out that was my day n im not going to school tommarow b.c im scared and dont want anything to happen

soo yea ... yesterday was an alright night. right know my finger hurts really bad and i need a shower

me and mike are doing soo good ... senior ball is comming up im sooo excited

gahh idk what to write :-p but im outta here i ned to shower before my babii gets outta work :-*
i love him mucho 




::love bubbles:: <-haha

so yea adam n justin came n picked me up we hung out here for a while then we went to the mall. boy that was interesting lemme tell youuu lol. seen some people made a new enemie (beat) and met someone really cool (joel) well since they had to be back at justins house to clean his room n stuff we left the mall at 7 n i came home.

mike got out of work at 8:15ish OMG this is killing me he works all day today 13 hours GAH!!!!8-9 what type of bullshit is this GRRRRRR but we got to his house he showeren n we had TACO BELL usually i dont like taco bell but omg i was stuffed lol i <3 taco bell its know my favorite i ended up spending the night at mikeys <3 n i came home at 7:50 this morning b.c he has to be at work by 8 :-[ and it sucks more b.c i work on his 1 hour lunch break i work 11-3 but gahh lol its all good



i had a greattttt time at the mall with justin n adam by homie g's n a wonderful night with my amazing boyfriend mike! <3 love you guysssss

i wish i could explain myself right know but i cant, i just feel so depressed its not funny. i havent been like this in soo long, and ugh ... forget it, if you know who i am n care enough and if i feel i can talk to you and yea ... maybe ill talk, im me

GAHHHH okay so this weekend is gunna suck mondo balls b.c i have nothing to doooo DAH! so how bout some mother effing plans i work saturday 11-3 @ spencers come see me!!!! hehe yea but anywho i dunno school sucked today didnt even feel like friday felt like mondayy .. which is beat as fun also. hmm 


my birthday 49 DAYS!!!!!!!! = the big 17
14 days till senior ball whoop come see me at the walk-in at 5:15




i really dunno besides im bored so yeaa call me <3333
gunna go clean i guesss
buh byesss

yeaa sooo today sucked balllllssss ... i just felt flat out ignored ..



ahh idk i worked it was reallyy slow
just feeling upset depressed





ima put lyrics in here then im off to bed
i love this song with every fiber of my being <3



^Echo by _Trapt
Close my eyes
Let the whole thing pass me by
There is no time
To waste asking why
I'll run away with you by my side
I'll run away with you by my side
I need to let go, let go, let go, let go of this pride,
(Asking why)

I think about your face
And how I fall into your eyes
The outline that I trace
Around the one that I call mine
Time that called for space
Unclear where you drew the line
I don't need to solve this case
And I don't need to look behind

Close my eyes
Let the whole thing pass me by
There is no time
To waste asking why
I'll run away with you by my side
I'll run away with you by my side
I need to let go, let go, let go, let go of this pride,
(Asking why)

Do I expect to change, the past I hold inside,
with all the words I say,
repeating over in my mind,
somethings you can't erase, no matter how hard you try,
an exit to escape is all there is left to find.

Close my eyes
Let the whole thing pass me by
There is no time
To waste asking why
I'll run away with you by my side
I'll run away with you by my side
I need to let go, let go, let go, let go of this pride,
Until this echo, echo, echo, echo in my mind
Until this echo, echo, echo, echo can subside

(I know I always loved you)
(I know I always loved you)
(I know I always loved you)

So I close my eyes
Let the whole thing pass me by
There is no time
To waste asking why
I'll run away with you by my side
I'll run away with you by my side
I need to let go, let go, let go, let go of this pride,
Until this echo, echo, echo, echo in my mind
Until this echo, echo, echo, echo can subside





dont take this song
and dont ever dedicate it to me and dont let me find out someone im close to dedicated it to someone else it will bother me
im off to bedd night kiddos






i need a second job any ideas?!?!?

so yea its been a while eh? idk if anyone really reads this i just tend to use it when theres so much on my mind if i dont vent to something or someone ill breakdown. gahh anywho today was interesting ... some kid got suspended for shoving and screaming in his g.f face i mean i dont like the girl but heyy and guys shoves a girl thats messed up. and oh yea todays 9 months for me and mike ... i cant beleive its been 9 months, wow. 


today in school i was in the guidance office with my counselor for almost an hour .. from the end of 8th period all through 9th ... we had a good talk i needed it alot figure out what im gunna take next year and where im going with my life ... haha wow ... we also talked about my parents ... sensitive topic right there im suprised i didnt cry 


on the brighter side


i've been getting alot closer to my 2 friends justin and adam and that makes me uber happy 



hmmm heres some dates to remember hehe
9 months w.mike: today
senior ball: 17 days
my 17^th birthday: 44 days ... june 29th

yea so work sucked balls haha whats else is new.. i worked with rob n kenny there awsome i must admit and it was a slow day which is pretty nice :-D i hurt my leg tho :-[ i dunno what i did but i effing limo know .. NOT COOL .. it hurts soooo bad .. so yupp i guess tommarow im hanging out with breanna marie .. he b.f jay n there friend chris .. cant say im to enthused but ill never know until i chill with them :-) been a while since i have seen my first wife anyways  :-p. hehe yea i dunno im soo tired but i dont wanna go to bed



so frustrated
just want it all to be better
my family is literally falling apart before your eyes and who knows when the peices will get put bak together
and blah .. i dunno 




grr ima go <3 buh byesssss
im so cold .. come lay with me n warm me up ;-)